There was a pause when I stopped suddenly and kept thinking of God.
In religion lesson I asked the teacher about Being of God. Girls and teacher considered my thoughts as ways to atheism. But no, this is impossible. It is impossible that my thoughts lead me to be an atheist. I just adore God and love to think deeply and greatly of him. My thoughts lead me to love him more and more.
Teacher and girls said that we only believe in God and know that he makes everything, and we do never have to think of being of God.
I believe in that saying when somebody asked other " Can this hole have the capacity of that river?" .
" No" the second answered.
" So, How can your little mind have the capacity for thinking of God and his being?!!". the first replied.
Yes, God is something Great. The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful and The Greatest.
I don't only believe that God makes things and we have to believe in him, but also I believe that God causes the reasons of our happiness and great moments, the one who gives us the power to overcome the ordeals that we face in our lives, the one who gives us the strength to achieve our ambitions and dreams. God always sends angels to protect us wherever we go. God was there in the school, there in that spot where a great explosion happened and where I stood terrified and confused having no idea about what I can do in moments of suffer and despair. God is the one who made that great thing which fill our days with kind rays that lead us to reach what we like to reach, he made our beautiful Sun.
I think God hides something beyond the Sun, and I have to continue my way to reach beyond the sun.
Many feel afriad that they might see Sandybelle in the TV talking about God atheistly, I think that they feel afraid of thinking because their faith isn't like mine. My faith leads me to think and then to find. And when I thought for another while I " I can see God in my heart, in the mirror, in the river, in the sky, in my shadow, in the sun, in my mom's eyes, among my great memories, among my words and … and then I see him looking upon me with pity".
I realize how much God is great especially when I feel gloomy and when I shelter in prayers and how much comfortable and free after that.
God gives us the ability to learn the right form the wrong and to be forgiving with others. God taught us the right ways that lead us to live in our lives happily and with peace and love.
This is God for me. And I can't spend any day without thinking of him. And my faithful gives me the power to love, help, listen, read,.. and to do all things I love to do and all things I believe in.
Many girls ask me about my main ambitions in the life, what I love to be and how I love to be. Someone says" You are a bit obscure Sandybelle ,and I really love to ask you about you".
I smiled when she asked. I just told her:
" first of all, let me tell you that I believe in everything helps me to reach beyond the sun. In my life there is a great sight of hope as you see and know, also ambition.
My dreams are my life, because the life was past caused reasons for present and presents causes reasons for future, and every moment I spend waiting for future gives me the power and the confidence that there is nothing impossible.
For me the doctor is like an angel, especially when I look at him/her and how emotional he/she seems. When he/she treats the patient kindly and beautifully. Also diseases are the main reasons of many ones' problems and misery. This is why I love to be a doctor.
The poverty is another misery for the poor ones, poverty leads many people to think of stealing and killing to get money, and then this leads to find catastrophes in society. And this is why I love to do my best for paupers to lessen the criminals and to create the smile on faces lost it for a long time. I think the great crown of this dream is Noble Prize. And don't you forget that Being poor isn't a shame, but the shame is when you think that poverty is shame.
Singing and acting are nice ways to get money to give to paupers. I know that many artists make concerts and create movies to give the returns to the paupers in their country or any other place in the world. As well as I love acting and singing. I always in times of happiness at home I sing for the family with my sisters and everyone listens attentively.
Being an author is another dream, because I realize that words have power and power can make changes in the world towards the right direction.
….. in fact, I love every work leads to find happiness for the one his/her self or for others. But I believe that good ones in the world see that their benefit is hidden in work brings benefit for others. "
She said" But maybe you will not be able to achieve all of them!!"
" So What?!! I just realize that God helps ones who helps themselves and my ambitions color my life to continue the way. And gives me the ability to carry my message, and to do my best to achieve them. Hope, peace, love and spirit are in my heart and in your heart and the others' hearts and this is why we can stay alive" I answered.
" you are great, I hope I'll be like you, you are in my mind and my love increases especially when I remember that day when I was very sad and was ready to leave the life and then you came as a great care in moments of illness . your words helped me to re-arrange my sheets and stand again. I love to have a younger sister and friend like you" She said.
I just smiled and kissed her. Hehehehe many people wonder about my personality and ones try to discover me themselves and others ask me and others favor to make it as secret.
I have only Secret, secret that I learn from everything I face in my life..
Keep your secrets in your hearts,
And don't you forget that beyond the sun there is something needs to be found and this is why we do our best to find it..Free like the plume and clear like the sky,
P.S. This week was normal with the exception of the explosions that happened, you know explosions are normal, so much homework and many quizzes.Zuzu is doing well in her exams and study. I'm happy for her.