Weird is the life, ridiculous and meaningful. But day by day, I get amazed, it is not as simple as I many times think, and not as clear as the raindrop.
To school I go every day, in school I meet classmates, teachers and friends. but I have never thought of terrorism to be found in school!!!
Many teachers taught me all the four years ago, and this year is the last one, it is my duty to remember those days when I meet these high men, who gave me, supported me and encouraged me.
I love to mention my physics teacher, whom I love to call "Barbie" , my history teacher whom I call "the modest philosopher" , my chemistry teacher who is well known as " hope ma'am" ,and my mathematics teacher whom I love very much and consider the good ever.
The two years ago, in Arabic class, a young teacher "A" was responsible for our grade, and no one among the students suffered of her teaching, she's got the Mc degree. and she every time brought a new very big book to let's write down many notes about our mother language, she really loves me too much, and she's taken my phone number (like five other teachers), she was calling me from time to time in the summer vacation to ask about me and how I was doing with my private lessons, she is just like all the other teachers who consider me the best student ever, and trust me to a very great extent. but as you know, every teacher has her/his own way to express his/her feelings towards the students, yet, she has hers.
For many years ago, the teacher"S" who has a very good experience in teaching, was responsible for the sixth grade, and no girl suffered, many girls got high marks depending on her teaching only, she loves me very much, and I admire her greatly too.
The last days of my vacation brought many many calls from my teacher A, indeed, she adored the idea of teaching us this year too, and she called me asking me whether the girls like her or not and whether they mind if she teaches us or not.
For me, I found out that it was too hard to guess the fit opinions, becuase many girls tried to show the opposite of what they hid of feelings, it is normal, so I asked her to wait until the first day, at that time, she would ask the girls herself and it will be clearly known, even though she had asked the girls last year, and most of them agreed and the others hadn't given any opinion..
She entered the class, the girls began to exchange looks, the reality was that they didn't want her to teach us this year, they preferred S ( the opposite of what they chose last year). to talk about my opinion, I told them that I like and admire both S and A, and I don't care about the matter, I want them both, and I prefer that they make the decision, it is not my business, it is the headmistress's and the teachers'.
And I told the girls, if they didn't like A, they should go directly to either her or the headmistress to explain the matter, so, there wouldn't be any problem, we had to behave well.
I advised them..
But what happened, they began to talk badly in front of the other teachers about A, saying that she has never been fine and that they don't like her teaching. Every time, they asked me to speak out with the other teachers, and every time I explain my idea for them again.
Until that morning, when they (without taking the permission, saying that it is a democracy, and I'm still wondering , is it a democracy that you talk badly about someone and you don't tell him/her? or is it democracy that you don't admire the others' opinions? or is it democracy that you don't face the one you have a problem with and tell him/her about the matter to reach the best resulty without any fighting? the very great problem is that they don't understand what democracy means, they use the wrong meaning, the wrong way) made an election among each other to vote for either A or S, I didn't share them, and I said "look, I say it again, I don't like this idea at all, it should belong to the headmistress, not to me, I won't vote, I'm sorry". every girl else voted..
It went on, but later,they began to talk badly about me, and why? because I didn't vote, one of them "Sa" who always pretended to be good said " ok, soleil, tell us, what is your choice? S orA?"
Indeed, I love both A and S, and I told her " I don't care, I want them both, and anyone likes to teach us I will agree, my manners refure that I give a valuation about any teacher". she didn't admire my opinion, and made the other girls feel the same way, it was like a battle against me, until I spoke..
It was English class, when Sa came again to talk badly about me again, but I stood there, alone, and expressed my thought in front of the teacher who really admired me for that.. I reminded the girls of my pieces of advise, my admiration towards them , then , they announced the war, but the funny is that I didn't prefer to be the enemy, so, it was a war, but against whom???
I went to the headmistress and her assistants and told them about the problem, I was surprised by what they said, it was..
" look Soleil, all the teachers love you, admire you and respect all your opinions, you have always been the wise and wonderful student for us. your classmates love you , but it is the jealousy that prevent them from saying they love you... let them to time, they will be sorry after a while, everyone knows you, your manners and personality, everyone, so don't care, you have to take your way and focus on your studying only, some of them might hate you, like Sa, and tries to make you fail, so , the best response to them is to ignore what they do, and get your highest marks which all of us expect them to be. please Soleil, stay who you are, and never care, never think of them.. jealousy don't last for long, we know you, we know how you do, your intentions and your deeds, we know everything. We've asked the teachers who taught you in your private lessons, they all LOVE YOU GREATLY, and it is the best thing''.
I felt sad, I didn't want them to be jealous. why do they feel like that with me? why? because I really loved them? because I sincerely helped them? or because I did all my best to explain the lessons they found problems with? because I did this they feel jealous? the only thing I realize is that jealousy leads to hatred.. Most of the girls in this calss were with me in my private lessons, they saw how the teachers treated me, i still remember six of them when they said" how could you make him-talking about physics teacher-smile? do you use a charm? he never smiles!! how could you make him??!!! and the other- chemistry teacher- how could you ,make him keep your name? or know your father?". I didn't know that this talking might lead to jealousy!!!I didn't..
This is why I moved to another class, I wanted this year to be free of troubles comepletely, and I wanted myself to be full of high spirits, it is not the suitable time to get busy with silly, actually SO silly problems. and the only sincere one who cried that I left the class was Maf, I hugged her and told her that I will always be here for her, no matter what happens...
After few days, I've known that the teacher A got threatened, she had received a threatening sheet, and it was written, " you have to leave teaching the 6th grade soon, otherwise.."
I thanked God because he gave me the mind to leave that class, "otherwise.." what ? what can they do? kill her? or kill me because my opinion was not like theirs? I was afriad to death to hear this, and I'm wondering now, they are girls in teenage and they threaten, what if they reach 20s? or 30s? they will be this society women in the future, soon future, so, let me clap for them, they will give their children the fit genes, genes of terrorism....
I don't understand people sometimes, but the only thing I believe in is to make things easy and let it be as it likes to be..
the new class I moved to was different, they are all polite and prefer to stay away from troubles,they are co-operative and lovely, they loved me from the beginning and made a small party welcoming me, they said I have to refresh my brain in order to do the best, and they will put their hands in mine and I can't change my habit that I teach and explain hard subjects, I can't change it, because I believe is what I'm doing is not for me nor for them, it's for God, and only imagining how happy God will turn -when he sees me doing this- makes me forget all the problems.Now, I'm so happy with the new, the last step I will spend with them, may it be as great as I love it to be!!!
We make fun in the free time and listen to music.
English teaching system has been changed to better. my sister now in 8 age studies english, and the text books of English have been changed for the primary classes and the first grade of the high school. I'm so happy with this, is it like if they have listened attentively to me with a sight of silence :D :D ;D.. i expect more better things..
My Christain teachers have come back, I met ma'am of hope and hugged her, she gave me a piece of chocolate :D :D, haha, and I met Barbie too, everything is well now. My Christian friends have come back too, may God bless them..
PS, A is teaching us today and could destroy her fear, she surely needs to improve herself, this will happen by time, if we want something, we have to do it, we shouldn't depend on teaching like spoon-feeding.We didn't study anything in that English class that day, was is ok that we don't study just because of a silly problems?!! I will always be here, for the girls in my ex-class and for everyone else.. I'm still willing to visit S, I'm planning for this, I like all my teachers, because their message is the best ever, best as far as I believe..
This post was like an eye upon a class here, many people here don't understand what the real democracy means and how we should make good use of it.. it is a calling for all the social establishments to make the thing right..