Smile of dawn

" There is nobody here.. There is nobody near..
Let these matters be.. Don't you trust what you see..
Take hold of your time.. Step into the line.."
I kept saying while I was washing dishes. Mom is abroad and I do all home affairs. I tried too find sutiable tone for these words, and praise be to God, I did.
At night, I needed to stand beside my window. The sky was completely dark with the exception of some shining spots that we call stars. There was our dear and the great helper of the sun, the wonderful Moon.
The scene was like a black cloth inlaid with pearls. I began to count the stars ( childish behaviour), the first was for my grandpa, the second for grandma, the thirs for grandpa........... then, there was a pause, I stopped for a while, and I kept thinking. Maybe every star is a sun for another group of planets!!, maybe there is another earth! maybe there is another people live far away from here!! It is strange and maybe foolish idea, but I thought. Maybe poeple there aren't humans, maybe are angels and will come soon to put an end to this misery. Yes, Yes. God never foget his worshippers. God really knows who we are and who I am.
I felt of shudder , I wanted to go out, to stand in the middle of the street and to make loud cry
" WE WANT TO BE ALIVE!!!" , "No one can make our life like this dark night. No one can destroy our hearts. Maybe bulidings and streets are destroyed, but not the hearst!!".
I went to my daddy and asked him about the angels, he said" Oh dear, the main field of the angels is Eden. But look, you are maybe right and maybe worng. But the very thing I believe in and can tell you is that we must not wait for the angles only, we have our hands, our opened and free mind. We did alot, and we will do. there is no other choice and no other way. We chose the life".
I went to bed , I couldn't sleep. I brought up some old memories, my grandpa. His words still fill my mind when he said "Whoever wants to be or do, he/she will. but I say that man can create pain in one moment to another, but to remove this pain , it needs so very long time".
Maybe that is right, evildoers and terrorists gave us pain for four years and if pain of one moment needs long time, what about pain of four years?!!!
But there is a space and hope. The time is n't over and this is why we can live for ever!
We believe in what we do and what we can achieve. God stands by our side , as well as the angles and the prayers.
We are faithful, we are hopeful , we are strong..
We are brave, we are great and we are not alone..
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I admire westlife when they gave songs, meaningful songs having power to move many hearts.
" Flying without wings, amazing,season in the sun, rose and backhome and so many others" every song has its own spirit. They talk about friendship, love, hope, help and faith. and they have main aim, is to create the smile.
I'm moved by all them Especially the one backhome, they talk about their homeland Ireland. What about my home?!
*Iraq* that word which is full of grandeur. the mother place of the first letter, the first wheel and the first laws.
Our ancestors lighted up many candles. And it is our chance to light up others.
They sowed and we harvest,and we sow for others to harvest. So let us sow for love and peace.
Now, terroists want us to lose everything, hope , home and life. They want to destroy our country and memories and hope. But no thanks!! we decided to build again and to sow again.
Now, my life contains many surprises. although I love surprise , but I don't favor them to be kind of fear. Every new day contains anxiety about people whom we love. When I hear of an explosion took place in Baghdad here or there, I begin to think of 100 persons!! maybe uncle, or aunt, no it is cousin, but I'm sure it could be the best friend!! Oh God!! soon, I turned to prayers. But on the other hand, there is great sight of hope everyday.
I look at my sisters with pity. Poor ones children of Iraq. They didn't feel of or live real life that any child in the world live or plan to live and lead.
Many children are forced to leave school to earn their pure living, because they have lost their dad in some explosion or because they were born as orphans, and NO ONE cares.
after these thoughts, I felt so sleepy and then I slept deeply. My grandpa visited me in the dream and smiled.
Then, I was awakened by explosion at about 6:30 a.m., I quickly went to the window and took out the curtain, there were not destroyed windows nor killed poeple!!! But there was Sun and beautiful rays!!! It was the dawn!
Thank you grandpa!! Now I have the desire to go to sleep, I may see you again!!!
But I believe that your soul is everywhere around me, supports me and gives me the power to do and not to stay asleep! God bless your soul grandpa!
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I brought up my school books and kept turning their pages. every page reminds me of day, one was special that we didn't hear any explosion, other was funny that we made many jokes in the class, other was dangerous that big explosion took place.
The second academic semester will start next Sunday. Thank God we can go to school. We study and get knowledge.
The study reminds me of the great scienists.
The scientists that gave the humanity the great ways that lead us to this developed world were simple men, but they used their mind and thoughts in the right way. Their circumstances and the life that they lived was not perfect. And this make me feel comfortable, that these days are not completely bad, there is something good that we can be giant and great like them. Always the hard days lead to find great people!.
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At finaly I can say
" What we do and say is like a great tree, its roots are fixed and has olives reach the sky. And what they do is like ash, any simple wind can take it very very far".
The lucky one is who can climb our tree..

and don't you forget" the sun can't be seen except in the clear sky".
We may make our sky clear.
Just like the sun,
Sandybelle
NB: the explosion I heard was about car bomb exploded by the national guards, we are thankful that they noticed it and there was no victims or damages .